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We owe thanks to the men and women who stand today in harm's
way, defending
our nation and our way of life from the scourge of terrorism. They
willingly
risk their lives on our behalf, and in so doing; protect a precious
gift-our
freedom, just as many of you have done in times past. "Taking Chance"
tells the tale of the return home of Private First Class Chance Phelps,
a Marine
who made the supreme sacrifice.
I will have to tell you, up front, that tears of pride flowed
from this old
Colonel's eyes as I read the story. It showed how our Marine
Corps continues to take special care of our fallen Marines, and it also
showed how ordinary Americans react in honor of a servicemember who has
made
the supreme sacrifice. Whether or not you support what America is doing
in
Iraq, I believe it is worth your time to read the attached file.
May God bless and protect the soldiers, sailors, airmen and
Marines of this
Great Country and our allies who are in harm's way.
Taking Chance
Chance Phelps was wearing his Saint Christopher medal when he
was killed on Good Friday. Eight days later, I handed the medallion to
his mother. I didn’t know Chance before he died. Today, I miss him.
Over a year ago, I volunteered to escort the remains of
Marines killed in Iraq should the need arise. The military provides a
uniformed escort for all casualties to ensure they are delivered safely
to the next of kin and are treated with dignity and respect along the
way.
Thankfully, I hadn’t been called on to be an escort since
Operation Iraqi Freedom began. The first few weeks of April, however,
had been a tough month for the Marines. On the Monday after Easter I
was reviewing Department of Defense press releases when I saw that a
Private First Class Chance Phelps was killed in action outside of
Baghdad. The press release listed his hometown—the same town I’m from.
I notified our Battalion adjutant and told him that, should the duty to
escort PFC Phelps fall to our Battalion, I would take him.
I didn’t hear back the rest of Monday and all day Tuesday
until 1800. The Battalion duty NCO called my cell phone and said I
needed to be ready to leave for Dover Air Force Base at 1900 in order
to escort the remains of PFC Phelps.
Before leaving for Dover I called the major who had the task
of informing Phelps’s parents of his death. The major said the funeral
was going to be in Dubois, Wyoming. (It turned out that PFC Phelps only
lived in my hometown for his senior year of high school.) I had never
been to Wyoming and had never heard of Dubois.
With two other escorts from Quantico, we got to Dover AFB at
2330 on Tuesday night. First thing on Wednesday we reported to the
mortuary at the base. In the escort lounge there were about half a
dozen Army soldiers and about an equal number of Marines waiting to
meet up with "their" remains for departure. PFC Phelps was not ready,
however, and I was told to come back on Thursday. Now, at Dover with
nothing to do and a solemn mission ahead, I began to get depressed.
I was wondering about Chance Phelps. I didn’t know anything
about him; not even what he looked like. I wondered about his family
and what it would be like to meet them. I did pushups in my room until
I couldn’t do any more.
On Thursday morning I reported back to the mortuary. This
time there was a new group of Army escorts and a couple of the Marines
who had been there Wednesday. There was also an Air Force captain there
to escort his brother home to San Diego.
We received a brief covering our duties, the proper handling
of the remains, the procedures for draping a flag over a casket, and of
course, the paperwork attendant to our task. We were shown pictures of
the shipping container and told that each one contained, in addition to
the casket, a flag. I was given an extra flag since Phelps’s parents
were divorced. This way they would each get one. I didn’t like the idea
of stuffing the flag into my luggage but I couldn’t see carrying a
large flag, folded for presentation to the next of kin, through an
airport while in my Alpha uniform. It barely fit into my suitcase.
It turned out that I was the last escort to leave on
Thursday. This meant that I repeatedly got to participate in the small
ceremonies that mark all departures from the Dover AFB mortuary.
Most of the remains are taken from Dover AFB by hearse to the
airport in Philadelphia for air transport to their final destination.
When the remains of a service member are loaded onto a hearse and ready
to leave the Dover mortuary, there is an announcement made over the
building’s intercom system. With the announcement, all service members
working at the mortuary, regardless of service branch, stop work and
form up along the driveway to render a slow ceremonial salute as the
hearse departs. Escorts also participated in each formation until it
was their time to leave.
On this day there were some civilian workers doing
construction on the mortuary grounds. As each hearse passed, they would
stoop working and place their hard hats over their hearts. This was my
first sign that my mission with PFC Phelps was larger than the Marine
Corps and that his family and friends were not grieving alone.
Eventually I was the last escort remaining in the lounge. The
Marine Master Gunnery Sergeant in charge of the Marine liaison there
came to see me. He had Chance Phelps’s personal effects. He removed
each item; a large watch, a wooden cross with a lanyard, two loose dog
tags, two dog tags on a chain, and a Saint Christopher medal on a
silver chain. Although we had been briefed that we might be carrying
some personal effects of the deceased, this set me aback. Holding his
personal effects, I was starting to get to know Chance Phelps.
Finally we were ready. I grabbed my bags and went outside. I
was somewhat startled when I saw the shipping container, loaded
three-quarters of the way in to the back of a black Chevy Suburban that
had been modified to carry such cargo. This was the first time I saw my
"cargo" and I was surprised at how large the shipping container was.
The Master Gunnery Sergeant and I verified that the name on the
container was Phelps’s then they pushed him the rest of the way in and
we left. Now it was PFC Chance Phelps’s turn to receive the
military—and construction workers’—honors. He was finally moving
towards home.
As I chatted with the driver on the hour-long trip to
Philadelphia, it became clear that he considered it an honor to be able
to contribute in getting Chance home. He offered his sympathy to the
family. I was glad to finally be moving yet apprehensive about what
things would be like at the airport. I didn’t want this package to be
treated like ordinary cargo yet I knew that the simple logistics of
moving around a box this large would have to overrule my preferences.
When we got to the Northwest Airlines cargo terminal at the
Philadelphia airport, the cargo handler and hearse driver pulled the
shipping container onto a loading bay while I stood to the side and
executed a slow salute. Once Chance was safely in the cargo area, and I
was satisfied that he would be treated with due care and respect, the
hearse driver drove me over to the passenger terminal and dropped me
off.
As I walked up to the ticketing counter in my uniform, a
Northwest employee started to ask me if I knew how to use the automated
boarding pass dispenser. Before she could finish another ticketing
agent interrupted her. He told me to go straight to the counter then
explained to the woman that I was a military escort. She seemed
embarrassed. The woman behind the counter already had tears in her eyes
as I was pulling out my government travel voucher. She struggled to
find words but managed to express her sympathy for the family and thank
me for my service. She upgraded my ticket to first class.
After clearing security, I was met by another Northwest
Airline employee at the gate. She told me a representative from cargo
would be up to take me down to the tarmac to observe the movement and
loading of PFC Phelps. I hadn’t really told any of them what my mission
was but they all knew.
When the man from the cargo crew met me, he, too, struggled
for words. On the tarmac, he told me stories of his childhood as a
military brat and repeatedly told me that he was sorry for my loss. I
was starting to understand that, even here in Philadelphia, far away
from Chance’s hometown, people were mourning with his family.
On the tarmac, the cargo crew was silent expect for
occasional instructions to each other. I stood to the side and saluted
as the conveyor moved Chance to the aircraft. I was relieved when he
was finally settled into place. The rest of the bags were loaded and I
watched them shut the cargo bay door before heading back up to board
the aircraft.
One of the pilots had taken my carry-on bag himself and had
it stored next to the cockpit door so he could watch it while I was on
the tarmac. As I boarded the plane, I could tell immediately that the
flight attendants had already been informed of my mission. They seemed
a little choked up as they led me to my seat.
About 45 minutes into our flight I still hadn’t spoken to
anyone expect to tell the first class flight attendant that I would
prefer water. I was surprised when the flight attendant from the back
of the plane suddenly appeared and leaned down to grab my hands. She
said, "I want you to have this" as she pushed a small gold crucifix,
with a relief of Jesus, into my hand. It was her lapel pin and it
looked somewhat worn. I suspected it had been hers for quite some time.
That was the only thing she said to me the entire flight.
When we landed in Minneapolis, I was the first one off the
plane. The pilot himself escorted me straight down the side stairs of
the exit tunnel to the tarmac. The cargo crew there already knew what
was on this plane. They were unloading some of the luggage when an Army
sergeant, a fellow escort who had left Dover earlier that day, appeared
next to me. His "cargo" was going to be loaded onto my plane for its
continuing leg. We stood side-by-side in the dark and executed a slow
salute as Chance was removed from the plane. The cargo crew at
Minneapolis kept Phelps’s shipping case separate from all the other
luggage as they waited to take us to the cargo area. I waited with the
soldier and we saluted together as his fallen comrade was loaded onto
the plane.
My trip with Chance was going to be somewhat unusual in that
we were going to have an overnight stopover. We had a late start out of
Dover and there was just too much traveling ahead of us to continue on
that day. (We still had a flight from Minneapolis to Billings, Montana,
then a five-hour drive to the funeral home. That was to be followed by
a 90-minute drive to Chance’s hometown.)
I was concerned about leaving him overnight in the
Minneapolis cargo area. My ten-minute ride from the tarmac to the cargo
holding area eased my apprehension. Just as in Philadelphia, the cargo
guys in Minneapolis were extremely respectful and seemed honored to do
their part. While talking with them, I learned that the cargo
supervisor for Northwest Airlines at the Minneapolis airport is a
Lieutenant Colonel in the Marine Corps Reserves. They called him for me
and let me talk to him.
Once I was satisfied that all would be okay for the night, I
asked one of the cargo crew if he would take me back to the terminal so
that I could catch my hotel’s shuttle. Instead, he drove me straight to
the hotel himself. At the hotel, the Lieutenant Colonel called me and
said he would personally pick me up in the morning and bring me back to
the cargo area.
Before leaving the airport, I had told the cargo crew that I
wanted to come back to the cargo area in the morning rather than go
straight to the passenger terminal. I felt bad for leaving Chance
overnight and wanted to see the shipping container where I had left it
for the night. It was fine.
The Lieutenant Colonel made a few phone calls then drove me
around to the passenger terminal. I was met again by a man from the
cargo crew and escorted down to the tarmac. The pilot of the plane
joined me as I waited for them to bring Chance from the cargo area. The
pilot and I talked of his service in the Air Force and how he missed
it.
I saluted as Chance was moved up the conveyor and onto the
plane. It was to be a while before the luggage was to be loaded so the
pilot took me up to the board the plane where I could watch the tarmac
from a window. With no other passengers yet on board, I talked with the
flight attendants and one of the cargo guys. He had been in the Navy
and one of the attendants had been in the Air Force. Everywhere I went,
people were continuing to tell me their relationship to the military.
After all the baggage was aboard, I went back down to the tarmac,
inspected the cargo bay, and watched them secure the door.
When we arrived at Billings, I was again the first off the
plane. This time Chance’s shipping container was the first item out of
the cargo hold. The funeral director had driven five hours up from
Riverton, Wyoming to meet us. He shook my hand as if I had personally
lost a brother.
We moved Chance to a secluded cargo area. Now it was time for
me to remove the shipping container and drape the flag over the casket.
I had predicted that this would choke me up but I found I was more
concerned with proper flag etiquette than the solemnity of the moment.
Once the flag was in place, I stood by and saluted as Chance was loaded
onto the van from the funeral home. I was thankful that we were in a
small airport and the event seemed to go mostly unnoticed. I picked up
my rental car and followed Chance for five hours until we reached
Riverton. During the long trip I imagined how my meeting with Chance’s
parents would go. I was very nervous about that.
When we finally arrived at the funeral home, I had my first
face-to-face meeting with the Casualty Assistance Call Officer. It had
been his duty to inform the family of Chance’s death. He was on the
Inspector/Instructor staff of an infantry company in Salt Lake City,
Utah and I knew he had had a difficult week.
Inside I gave the funeral director some of the paperwork from
Dover and discussed the plan for the next day. The service was to be at
1400 in the high school gymnasium up in Dubois, population about 900,
some 90 miles away. Eventually, we had covered everything. The CACO had
some items that the family wanted to be inserted into the casket and I
felt I needed to inspect Chance’s uniform to ensure everything was
proper. Although it was going to be a closed casket funeral, I still
wanted to ensure his uniform was squared away.
Earlier in the day I wasn’t sure how I’d handle this moment.
Suddenly, the casket was open and I got my first look at Chance Phelps.
His uniform was immaculate—a tribute to the professionalism of the
Marines at Dover. I noticed that he wore six ribbons over his
marksmanship badge; the senior one was his Purple Heart. I had been in
the Corps for over 17 years, including a combat tour, and was wearing
eight ribbons. This Private First Class, with less than a year in the
Corps, had already earned six.
The next morning, I wore my dress blues and followed the
hearse for the trip up to Dubois. This was the most difficult leg of
our trip for me. I was bracing for the moment when I would meet his
parents and hoping I would find the right words as I presented them
with Chance’s personal effects.
We got to the high school gym about four hours before the
service was to begin. The gym floor was covered with folding chairs
neatly lined in rows. There were a few townspeople making final
preparations when I stood next to the hearse and saluted as Chance was
moved out of the hearse. The sight of a flag-draped coffin was
overwhelming to some of the ladies.
We moved Chance into the gym to the place of honor. A Marine
sergeant, the command representative from Chance’s battalion, met me at
the gym. His eyes were watery as he relieved me of watching Chance so
that I could go eat lunch and find my hotel.
At the restaurant, the table had a flier announcing Chance’s
service. Dubois High School gym; two o’ clock. It also said that the
family would be accepting donations so that they could buy flak vests
to send to troops in Iraq.
I drove back to the gym at a quarter after one. I could’ve
walked—you could walk to just about anywhere in Dubois in ten minutes.
I had planned to find a quiet room where I could take his things out of
their pouch and untangle the chain of the Saint Christopher medal from
the dog tag chains and arrange everything before his parents came in. I
had twice before removed the items from the pouch to ensure they were
all there—even though there was no chance anything could’ve fallen out.
Each time, the two chains had been quite tangled. I didn’t want to be
fumbling around trying to untangle them in front of his parents. Our
meeting, however, didn’t go as expected.
I practically bumped into Chance’s step-mom accidentally and
our introductions began in the noisy hallway outside the gym. In short
order I had met Chance’s step-mom and father followed by his step-dad
and, at last, his mom. I didn’t know how to express to these people my
sympathy for their loss and my gratitude for their sacrifice. Now,
however, they were repeatedly thanking me for bringing their son home
and for my service. I was humbled beyond words.
I told them that I had some of Chance’s things and asked if
we could try to find a quiet place. The five of us ended up in what
appeared to be a computer lab—not what I had envisioned for this
occasion.
After we had arranged five chairs around a small table, I
told them about our trip. I told them how, at every step, Chance was
treated with respect, dignity, and honor. I told them about the staff
at Dover and all the folks at Northwest Airlines. I tried to convey how
the entire Nation, from Dover to Philadelphia, to Minneapolis, to
Billings, and Riverton expressed grief and sympathy over their loss.
Finally, it was time to open the pouch. The first item I
happened to pull out was Chance’s large watch. It was still set to
Baghdad time. Next were the lanyard and the wooden cross. Then the dog
tags and the Saint Christopher medal. This time the chains were not
tangled. Once all of his items were laid out on the table, I told his
mom that I had one other item to give them. I retrieved the flight
attendant’s crucifix from my pocket and told its story. I set that on
the table and excused myself. When I next saw Chance’s mom, she was
wearing the crucifix on her lapel.
By 1400 most of the seats on the gym floor were filled and
people were finding seats in the fixed bleachers high above the gym
floor. There were a surprising number of people in military uniform.
Many Marines had come up from Salt Lake City. Men from various VFW
posts and the Marine Corps League occupied multiple rows of folding
chairs. We all stood as Chance’s family took their seats in the front.
It turned out that Chance’s sister, a Petty Officer in the
Navy, worked for a Rear Admiral—the Chief of Naval Intelligence—at the
Pentagon. The Admiral had brought many of the sailors on his staff with
him to Dubois pay respects to Chance and support his sister. After a
few songs and some words from a Navy Chaplain, the Admiral took the
microphone and told us how Chance had died.
Chance was an artillery cannoneer and his unit was acting as
provisional military police outside of Baghdad. Chance had volunteered
to man a .50 caliber machine gun in the turret of the leading vehicle
in a convoy. The convoy came under intense fire but Chance stayed true
to his post and returned fire with the big gun, covering the rest of
the convoy, until he was fatally wounded.
Then the commander of the local VFW post read some of the
letters Chance had written home. In letters to his mom he talked of the
mosquitoes and the heat. In letters to his stepfather he told of the
dangers of convoy operations and of receiving fire.
The service was a fitting tribute to this hero. When it was
over, we stood as the casket was wheeled out with the family following.
The casket was placed onto a horse-drawn carriage for the mile-long
trip from the gym, down the main street, then up the steep hill to the
cemetery. I stood alone and saluted as the carriage departed the high
school. I found my car and joined Chance’s convoy.
The town seemingly went from the gym to the street. All along
the route, the people had lined the street and were waving small
American flags. The flags that were otherwise posted were all at
half-staff. For the last quarter mile up the hill, local boy scouts,
spaced about 20 feet apart, all in uniform, held large flags. At the
foot of the hill, I could look up and back and see the enormity of our
procession. I wondered how many people would be at this funeral if it
were in, say, Detroit or Los Angeles—probably not as many as were here
in little Dubois, Wyoming.
The carriage stopped about 15 yards from the grave and the
military pall bearers and the family waited until the men of the VFW
and Marine Corps league were formed up and schools busses had arrived
carrying many of the people from the procession route. Once the entire
crowd was in place, the pallbearers came to attention and began to
remove the casket from the caisson. As I had done all week, I came to
attention and executed a slow ceremonial salute as Chance was being
transferred from one mode of transport to another.
From Dover to Philadelphia; Philadelphia to Minneapolis;
Minneapolis to Billings; Billings to Riverton; and Riverton to Dubois
we had been together. Now, as I watched them carry him the final 15
yards, I was choking up. I felt that, as long as he was still moving,
he was somehow still alive.
Then they put him down above his grave. He had stopped moving.
Although my mission had been officially complete once I
turned him over to the funeral director at the Billings airport, it was
his placement at his grave that really concluded it in my mind. Now, he
was home to stay and I suddenly felt at once sad, relieved, and useless.
The chaplain said some words that I couldn’t hear and two
Marines removed the flag from the casket and slowly folded it for
presentation to his mother. When the ceremony was over, Chance’s father
placed a ribbon from his service in Vietnam on Chance’s casket. His
mother approached the casket and took something from her blouse and put
it on the casket. I later saw that it was the flight attendant’s
crucifix. Eventually friends of Chance’s moved closer to the grave. A
young man put a can of Coppenhagen on the casket and many others left
flowers.
Finally, we all went back to the gym for a reception. There
was enough food to feed the entire population for a few days. In one
corner of the gym there was a table set up with lots of pictures of
Chance and some of his sports awards. People were continually
approaching me and the other Marines to thank us for our service.
Almost all of them had some story to tell about their connection to the
military. About an hour into the reception, I had the impression that
every man in Wyoming had, at one time or another, been in the service.
It seemed like every time I saw Chance’s mom she was hugging a
different well wisher. As time passed, I began to hear people laughing.
We were starting to heal.
After a few hours at the gym, I went back to the hotel to
change out of my dress blues. The local VFW post had invited everyone
over to "celebrate Chance’s life." The Post was on the other end of
town from my hotel and the drive took less than two minutes. The crowd
was somewhat smaller than what had been at the gym but the Post was
packed.
Marines were playing pool at the two tables near the entrance
and most of the VFW members were at the bar or around the tables in the
bar area. The largest room in the Post was a banquet/dinning/dancing
area and it was now called "The Chance Phelps Room." Above the entry
were two items: a large portrait of Chance in his dress blues and the
Eagle, Globe, & Anchor. In one corner of the room there was another
memorial to Chance. There were candles burning around another picture
of him in his blues. On the table surrounding his photo were his Purple
Heart citation and his Purple Heart medal. There was also a framed copy
of an excerpt from the Congressional Record. This was an elegant
tribute to Chance Phelps delivered on the floor of the United States
House of Representatives by Congressman Scott McInnis of Colorado.
Above it all was a television that was playing a photo montage of
Chance’s life from small boy to proud Marine.
I did not buy a drink that night. As had been happening all
day, indeed all week, people were thanking me for my service and for
bringing Chance home. Now, in addition to words and handshakes, they
were thanking me with beer. I fell in with the men who had handled the
horses and horse-drawn carriage. I learned that they had worked through
the night to groom and prepare the horses for Chance’s last ride. They
were all very grateful that they were able to contribute.
After a while we all gathered in the Chance Phelps room for
the formal dedication. The Post commander told us of how Chance had
been so looking forward to becoming a Life Member of the VFW. Now, in
the Chance Phelps Room of the Dubois, Wyoming post, he would be an
eternal member. We all raised our beers and the Chance Phelps room was
christened.
Later, as I was walking toward the pool tables, a Staff
Sergeant form the Reserve unit in Salt Lake grabbed me and said, "Sir,
you gotta hear this." There were two other Marines with him and he told
the younger one, a Lance Corporal, to tell me his story. The Staff
Sergeant said the Lance Corporal was normally too shy and modest to
tell it but now he’d had enough beer to overcome his usual tendencies.
As the Lance Corporal started to talk, an older man joined
our circle. He wore a baseball cap that indicated he had been with the 1st
Marine Division in Korea. Earlier in the evening he had told me about
one of his former commanding officers; a Colonel Puller.
So, there I was, standing in a circle with three Marines
recently returned from fighting with the 1st Marine Division
in Iraq and one not so recently returned from fighting with the 1st
Marine Division in Korea. I, who had fought with the 1st
Marine Division in Kuwait, was about to gain a new insight into our
Corps.
The young Lance Corporal began to tell us his story. At that
moment, in this circle of current and former Marines, the differences
in our ages and ranks dissipated—we were all simply Marines.
His squad had been on a patrol through a city street. They
had taken small arms fire and had literally dodged an RPG round that
sailed between two Marines. At one point they received fire from behind
a wall and had neutralized the sniper with a SMAW round. The back blast
of the SMAW, however, kicked up a substantial rock that hammered the
Lance Corporal in the thigh; only missing his groin because he had
reflexively turned his body sideways at the shot.
Their squad had suffered some wounded and was receiving more
sniper fire when suddenly he was hit in the head by an AK-47 round. I
was stunned as he told us how he felt like a baseball bat had been
slammed into his head. He had spun around and fell unconscious. When he
came to, he had a severe scalp wound but his Kevlar helmet had saved
his life. He continued with his unit for a few days before realizing he
was suffering the effects of a severe concussion.
As I stood there in the circle with the old man and the other
Marines, the Staff Sergeant finished the story. He told of how this
Lance Corporal had begged and pleaded with the Battalion surgeon to let
him stay with his unit. In the end, the doctor said there was just no
way—he had suffered a severe and traumatic head wound and would have to
be med’evaced.
The Marine Corps is a special fraternity. There are moments
when we are reminded of this. Interestingly, those moments don’t always
happen at awards ceremonies or in dress blues at Birthday Balls. I have
found, rather, that they occur at unexpected times and places: next to
a loaded moving van at Camp Lejeune’s base housing, in a dirty CP tent
in northern Saudi Arabia, and in a smoky VFW post in western Wyoming.
After the story was done, the Lance Corporal stepped over to
the old man, put his arm over the man’s shoulder and told him that he,
the Korean War vet, was his hero. The two of them stood there with
their arms over each other’s shoulders and we were all silent for a
moment. When they let go, I told the Lance Corporal that there were
recruits down on the yellow footprints tonight that would soon be
learning his story.
I was finished drinking beer and telling stories. I found
Chance’s father and shook his hand one more time. Chance’s mom had
already left and I deeply regretted not being able to tell her goodbye.
I left Dubois in the morning before sunrise for my long drive
back to Billings. It had been my honor to take Chance Phelps to his
final post. Now he was on the high ground overlooking his town.
I miss him.
Regards,
LtCol Strobl
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